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ini lahh nasib gune wifi uitm...office hour x blh bukak fb, twitter and etc...huhu....jd lah aku mcm org x betol golek sane golek sini sbb xtau dahh nak buat pe....last last teringat kat blog nihh...so conteng je la pape...huhu

hari ni settle suma masalah....dah dpt synchronized sume class n subjects...legaaaa...tgh nak daftar online jee..huhu....camni baru lahh smmgt sikit nak study...kalau x, nak bangun pagi punn rase mcm azab jee..hahahaha

btw, today my day is getting better.....dah okey dah tenang dah happy dah aman...dah semua lahh..hahaha.....nak share nape aku bole jd ok camni...

'always fill ur days with activities so ur heart won't be fill by sadness :)'

STRESS !!

otak sy x bole benti pk...asik nak pk jee smpi kepala jd sakit....fifi, kalau kau ni saintis rase rasenya da byk bnd dah yg kau invented...hahahah

kalau kat shah alam dulu dulu, bile stress camni je mesti ade kwn2 yg support...mesti pegi lepak cuci mata..haha...i miss that moment...mesti bole pegi berjimba jimba...drink and drunk...sampai lupa masalah...huhu

tp tu dulu pny cite...skg kena igt azam baru...iman kena kuat fifi !! whatever it is, turn to ALLAH....ALLAH xkan uji umatnya dgn sesuatu yg xmampu di tanggung :)

writing my blog AGAIN !! yeayyyy~

berbulan bulan da x tgk langsung pun blog nihh...kesian blog sy..haha...starting today since d new year has started, sy nak start berblog semule..hehe...hopefully my followers masih sudi nak follow n do leave any comment okeyy ?? :)

sampai cni dulu coz nak kena p class...will be back at 4.30 pm....will continue my writing if ade idea nak tulisss..heeee...till then...daaaa :)

fulstop

berhenti menulis blog utk sementara...pasni xblh nak commit dah...will b bz working n sleeping..huhu...till we meet again...daa~

demam~

huhu...demam lagiiiiii...tension..mesti sbb asik kua je...xckup tido n rehat....tp b4 start keje ni mau lepak ckup2..huhu...sape2 yg ade kat area 13 skg ni, bole la dtg join sy kat rafi...lepak2..n then p kedai zul yahya...bersyisya plak..hehe

hidup baru~

number da tukarrr...yeayy..finally...da xde lg da anonymous number yg msg n call..huhu....n now i'm back in shah alam...living my life as usual...n i'm about to getting back my fun life..!! hehe...so far semua ok...cume asik xckup tido jee...asik kua je..huhu...so now nak tido smpi mlm...bgun nnt nak p bershisha dgn ira..hehe...gudnite everyone~

kena marah... T_T

hari2 bangun lmbat, hr ni sy kna mrh dgn mak..huhu...mak ckp 'tu la online smpi pg...nnt mak tutup intenet tu br tau..' huhu...mesti la mak mrh kan sy bgun lmbt...xde sape nak tlg mak msk..sorry makkkk...xsengaja....igtkan xnak tido trus..pas tlg mak br tido mcm hari tu...tp nak bt cene..sy merancang, Allah jua yg menentukan...huhuhu

hr ni xde plan nak bt pape...maybe juz stay at home...dgn kepanasan cuaca thp t'tggi mcm ni, mmg xdo la den nak kua..haha..mcm hr2 biase...tgk tv je lah..sunday blues~

when u look inside a girl's heart,

u'll see the struggle it takes

to get thru all the craps in her life...

u'll see all the lies, the bullshits

and the times she wished she was dead...

but most of all, u'll see how hard it was

to let go of the asshole who acted like

he actually CARED...

dont judge a book by its cover..huhu

this is so trueeeee....trust me..hehe...sometimes what we look isn't d same like what it really is..happened to me like hundred times..huh...first thing first, i dedicate dis entry to someone who was once my closest friend and was like a daughter to my family..what looks good on the outside sometime just doesn't good on the inside..this suits her..perfectly....tadaaa..congrats to u sister...oppsss, not anymore...can i call u 'back stabber'?? if u allow me lah...but if u dont, who cares huh..i forgave u but i never forget...like forever....

and...i dedicate dis entry to myself..hehe...why eh??? let me tell u...people always see me as a lucky girl...they see me laughing, smiling, having fun...they think i am pretty and have almost everyhing...some of them think i am great till they feel shame to befriends with me..hmmm...but people do not know d truth bout me...behind my smile, there is pain...behind my laugh, there's suffer...i love to having fun coz i need to forget my misery life....yeahhh...my life is a misery...i always crying inside my heart...i get jealous when i see other people having a great n happy life.....i didn't finish my study...i have no job...i am broke...and d saddest thing ever, i have never had a great love life....yes i admit there's lots of guys who want me....take me as their gf...people might see me as a player...but only i know what's inside my heart...its hard for me to fall in love...but everytime i fall for someone, trust him, loving him with all my heart..in the end i'll be left broken hearted...this is so sad...i can't take d pain anymore...i'm tired of trying...and i always wonder ' bile aku nak bahagia mcm org lain?? '...aku pecinta yg setia tp kenapa susah nak cari org yg bole syg aku ikhlas n jujur....hmmm...only god knows....

huisshh...hari raya mcm ni xmo sedih la..huhu...3rd raya already..hehe...everybody must be tired of visiting n collecting duit raya kan...me included!! haha...i'm taking dis chance to wish u all a happy eid syawal....minta maaf zahir n batin...till we meet again in d next entry..sayonara~

si amatur yg xserius..huhu~

lamanyaaaaaaaaaaa x bukak blog...hahahah...malas gile ouh...plus nothing interesting to share...huhuu..

ok la...pasni nak konsisten dgn blog ni....kalo x kesian kat my baby bile bukak je blog ni xde new post..hahahah...

baby, love u baby....muahhhhh

empty..

my heart, my soul n my mind are feeling EMPTY

eventho there are lots of friends around me,

i still feeling EMPTY

my LIFE...

it's EMPTY

kenapa???

wish to b at somewhere

away from everything

kepala sesak...

da xnak study tp kenape nak kna study lg..abah, tlg lah fhm...sy da xnak study...if abah btol2 nak sy ada degree, pls let me further my study in different course...i dun mind to start all over again...plsss...pls understand my feeling...it's so tense to b a part 8 student...and it's more ashamed when i'm d only part 8 student in my course...sigh~

i'm sorry that i've made u dissapointed with me...my fault...my mistake...my flaw...i'm stupid...abah,i wish u cud hear what my heart is talking right now...i'm crying inside...and it's painful...i didn't mean to let u down....i wanna make u proud with me....but juz pls let me...let me start all over again...i promise u things won't b d same....

semangat sy dah hilang abah...hati sy dah xde kat PAMS lg....sy mintak maaf abah...

     few days da x bukak blog nih, lots of stories yg nak d share same2..huhuhu..i dunno how to start my writing dis time....where to start eh?? emmm..clubbing..heheh...after quite a long time my nights were so boring, i finally got back my fun night last friday...yippiiee..!! rootz best cume sempitnya..pack gile2 smpi bile dance pun asik nak t'langgar org je...haih~

     eh lupe pulak, last friday tu 1st time clubbing dgn mahathir lah rupanya..hahahahh...to mahathir, sorry if ada my behavior yg awk x suke mlm tu...xsedar loh..huhuhu...n thanks k for coming n thanks jgk utk moment moment yg selepas tu.. :P...sgt x boleh lupa ok..hahahahah..had a wonderful night with u...haihhh..wish i cud turn back d time...

     the nex day, i was talking all d time kan mahathir...n its something yg jarang2 aku jd mcm tu..hahahah...i was talking talking n talking from d moment we left the gardens till we entered the mid valley till we took the train to kl sentral n till mahathir met d clients...hahahah...bile mahathir p jmp client, aku t'pakse duduk kat table len sbb xblh kacau dorg berdiscuss...dr pkul 1 pm smpi 6 pm ok.....bygkn lah aku t'pks duduk for 5 hours and suffered sbb xblh nak ckp lgsg..sbb xde org nak ajak borak...haihhh...rs mcm nak join je org table sebelah tp kang igt aku gila pulak...da la ms tu dress up aku mcm indon je okey!!...ni mahathir pny psl la ni...huhuh..nex time bg lah baju yg cantik2 sket or maybe nex time i shud bring my own stuff anywhere i go...in case jd lg benda2 yg x d sangke mcm ni..huhuhuh....

     sunday pulak, aku, mahathir n ain dating bertiga k...3some..hahah...pegi timesquare teman ain shopping, mkn-mkn n tgk movie sampai lah ain collpases sbb dia x sihat plus excited sgt shopping utk awek dia..heheh...eh, n thanks again kat madir banje sy eyeliner, dress n cute snow cap..thanks awk..heheh

     my entry dis time sampai cni je la kot...siyes xde idea nak ckp pe lg...byk bnd yg jd tp xtau cene nak tulis..huhuhu...maybe nex time...till then, take care ya...

     

love is all around.. :)

happy tgk my close friend back in relationship with her boyfie.. :)
this is d season of love i guess..mane2 pegi pun semua mcm tgh so in love kann..syasya + syahir..emma + afifi....ain + fieza...hahah...ain...my bestfriend ever...no matter who u loved or in love with, i'll always supporting u ok..

talking bout love..i have my own perception...when 1 side gives MORE, d other side will gives LESS...yes, dis is true...trust me..